I'm not impressed...........

Once I have mastered a skill, I no longer am impressed by it. Things that intimidate me, that seem unattainable, once attained lose their distinction as accomplishments. I am impressed by the accomplishments of others, even respectful of them until I attain the same skill/license/knowledge. What's the deal with that? Is that a common character defect? Is it fear of failure or lack of confidence, what? The fact that I am alive and productive is a miracle, God's work. I still had to seek Him, I still had to do what he would not, that which I could do for myself. I've just completed ninety days of training to do a job that, at first, scared me to death. I have miles to go to be competent but I now know that I will get there. Instead of being proud, I diminish the accomplishment to suit a lesser self image. Maybe this instance of self awareness will spark a change. I think I would be impressed by that.